History, despite its wrenching pain, cannot be unlived, however, if faced with courage, need not be lived again.-Maya Angelou (1928- )

Last night I remembered something that I think I may have forgotten. Jay is human.

That night and the weeks after, all I could do was defend him as a person. It was not possible in my mind that he could understand what had happened. Then after more time, I focused in on what did happen and the fear and anxiety that came with it. I became angry with what I have to deal with on a daily basis. I was calloused to any good memory.

I will not excuse what he did, but in a quiet moment I remembered that he has pain too.